Alrighty then, I said I was going to do this, so….
I’ve always been the type of person who does what she said she was going to do. Therefore, when I said I was going to get married and have kids, I did what I needed to do to make it happen. I had only ever dated one man in my life. He wasn’t my prince charming, but we had been together for 5 years and I honestly felt he was going to be my only chance to have children, so I made it happen.
I had been warned not to marry this man. He had been married twice before and it was evident that he had some sort of drinking problem, but I didn’t let that stop me. The only other prospect was his friend and he had told me point blank, that he would not be “a tab A to my slot B”, meaning he did not want to father my children. Therefore, I set the wheels in motion and within the next few months, we were married and eleven months later, we had a child.
Needless to say, the story did not end well, but I have the two children that I so desperately desired. A LOT has happened in this short lifespan of mine and I intend to use this page to sort out my thoughts and feelings in hopes of finding some answers and possibly, peace of mind with the choices I have made. Most of all, I hope to explore all the lies that have been told me, even by myself and the ones I chose to live with.
#thelieswechoosetolivewith
9 Comments
Leave your reply.